Monday, November 23, 2009

Magtam tumkam / My prayer for you.

Happy birthday my darling.
I would have given anything to be with you today and share in your joy.

To sweep the yard for the coming guests and bring out all the vases, in anticipation of the many bouquets to come.
To gently take the gifts from your hands, as you happily accept the wishes of those who love and admire you.
To help Pops with the hundreds of thousands of little things he will have to do today, on his own - I'm so proud of him! How rarely he says it, but how often he shows it.
To take pictures. Oh so many pictures of you - smiling, happy, candid ones.
To give you my gift, first.
To make sure you have some wine right in the beginning, before everyone else arrives. Wink, wink.
To help you blow out the candles.
To stand with Papa and sing the saud for you.

But I will be with you in spirit.
Thanking the good Lord above for who you are, for gifting you to us and for all you mean to me.
I will remember all the special things we do - the cooking, reading, crosswords, chats over coffee, laughs over the phone even when at work, the goodnight stories, the hymns we sing.
I will remember all the difficult things you help me do - getting over my stammer, writing my farewell speech, saying sorry, choosing.
I will remember all the times I don't even need to look behind me - I know you are there, always.
I will remember all the times I know you are my friend first.
I will remember how beautiful you are and always have been.
I will hear your laugh and I will laugh to myself, I will feel you pull my cheeks and frown at you.
I will remember how you cried the night before our wedding and how you love dude so whole heartedly, as only you can.
I will remember how you always teach me to see the good in others.
I will remember that you are Daddy's little girl, as I am now.

I will look at myself in the mirror and realise how much like you I am.
And I will be very, very proud.

Happy birthday Mama my darling.
I love you.

Day 4 - Pic 1
- The altar at home-
- Goa, 2009 -

Our beautiful, traditional altar at home in Siolim, Goa.
Dedicated to the angel who taught me to pray and convinced me that that God had a special book with my name on it, full of golden stars for all the good things I did.
I still believe it.

My prayer for you, today and always, is for your every moment to be filled with love, joy, happiness, good health and laughter. Yes, it is a simple one. I have learnt it from you.

Have a great birthday Ma, you deserve the best.
See you soon.


  1. aaaww... such a *huummm* teary post... :-(

    But Rose... I think it should be

    I will look at myself in the mirror and realise how much like you I intend to be.
    Or am working very hard towards....


  2. its a sweet post darling!!
    Happy Birthday to your mom!!

    And thanks for encouraging me for my exams

  3. Thank you our darling. We missed you very much every moment. Thanks to your prayers all went well. We love you and dude always and forever. Your loving Pama.

  4. OMG!...This is my first time on your blog and i must say i am totally hooked...i love your writing style and the little pic in each post is like icing on the yummy cake. Great job with the blog and Happy Birthday to your Ma!


  5. I wished your mama and thought I wouldn't comment to this post. However, couple of things in there are questionable or rather, I'm curious if they are for real. [a] the wine bit - God, she has changed so much (lol). I so much want to believe you. (b) was she really Daddy's little girl? now that connects to (a) and the beer that that little girl liked so much.
    This might be difficult for the rest to follow but Mama and I know.

  6. *bursts out laughing* Pascal, mama and I read this together and she told me the beer story!!! LOL!!!! And yes, she has changed - a little wine here and there never hurt anyone *grin* but beer will always be her first love.
    ; )

  7. Loved this article. Good job. Can't imagine the little girl who Mama treated like a doll is all grown up.

    Mother's Day is round the corner this Sunday 9th May, 2010 and this post shows how Ceci is blessed.
    Aunty Edna


  8. : )
    I told Deni the same thing about Dalu!
    Thank you so much!