Sunday, May 23, 2010

The IT angel

A lot of people have told me that my blog is a happy place to be. I'm generally cheerful and it comes out on my blog - stuff like that. I can usually think of happy moments in my day...but today - nothing.

Today, all day, I've tried to shake the thought of the Mangalore AI crash. I spent all of yesterday reading about it, watching it on the news, praying. It's hard to imagine that somewhere in all this madness and grief, there is meant to be some sanity. I tried really hard today. But it kept creeping back into my mind, like I still needed to think about it, pray some more...I don't know.

When I was a kid, my mum and dad used to always say that whenever we travelled, we'd travel together. I'd never get it.
When flights would get delayed, airports would get things wrong, one of us would be ill abroad - mum would say, 'Never mind, at least we're together!' I'd never get it.
When things got bad with Dad's hand (my dad has a condition called dystonia. Long story. And no, he doesn't suffer from it. He's Superman, is my Pa.) mum and dad would always smile through everything...and as I grew, I realized that all that mattered to them, was that we were together. I still didn't get it completely.

Today - I got it.
A guy who works in my company, along with his wife and two children, passed away in the crash. I did not know him personally, but I remember him as a guy who was always laughing and whose eyes crinkled when he smiled. He worked in IT and was always so so helpful. I remember him as a guy who never said no.
As I thought about him and saw his picture today, I realised that somewhere, I was glad that he was with his family and they were all together. Don't think me mean or cold hearted. But I get what mum meant - all those times. To be together...would be better than being left behind.

I think my heart would just break and I'd die inside if I lost someone I loved. I don't know how else to say it.

To all those who lost their lives yesterday...and to all those you've left prayers are with you, as are so many others.

And to you...our smiling IT angel...we remember you. Bless.


  1. aawww.. Rose... a big hug to you!! I know.. I've been the same.. constantly thinking or talking about it... Its horrid!!

    But I've come to the conclusion.. that no matter what happens to me.. I've got you guys (and I mean... all you guys...).. to take care of anything I leave behind... Thats why.. God has taken so much time to make FAMILY... Its just that we dont understand the importance of an uncle... an aunt... a cousin... till something like this happens...

  2. I understand what you mean Rose. And I love what you wrote about your Ma and Pa :) *Hugz*

  3. Yeah Rose. I get it too.
    There was this 4 year old who had been rescued but died on the way to the hospital.I hope the child is with parents now.Cant imagine being left behind.
    As tragic as death is living alone is a greater tragedy.
    There is something touching in the way the people on the sides pulled up the rescuer.

    Someday, I'd like to meet ur parents.

  4. Rose!!!!
    I cant pick the right words to type now, so i am just going to stop right here.

    Love you always!

  5. R.I.P. All those of the A.I tragedy.

    Ours prayers are with your families and loved ones left behind.

    Knowing you will take care of them as guardian angels now is a comforting thought in this moment of doubt.


  6. Hi Girl, have no words to express my feelings;it filled my eyes. Thanks to Denise who informed about your Blog. Great writing Girl, bravo. Luda.

  7. Looking at the positive, happy knowing some survived and thinking spiritually, it's mind boggling how God saves those he wants to save.

    And then...negative thoughts creep into my mind and I think - the survivors managed to cheat is death gonna let them live knowing it has been cheated??

    So finally, it's not about us humans at all - it's a fight between the Gods themselves, Good vs Evil, Life Vs Death. Here's hoping Life, Good and the positives WIN !!! :)